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Girl with a shield  Finish by yalex
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The very first thing that draws the viewer's attention is, of course, the lovely woman sitting in the centre, her eyes fixed on the vie...

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I don’t know if you ever think about me and if you cry like I do when I feel the void where a father is supposed to be. I wonder if you really meant to start over when I heard from you in June, just before Father’s Day. All those wondrous promises and I never heard from you in the six months after. Don’t you miss your son? Am I still your son in your eyes or do we just happen to share DNA? I know I don’t have a father, I only had a father up until I was 8 years old, I think. I don’t remember. I don’t recall when our paths divided, you with a woman you apparently chose over me, me growing up facing struggles I could’ve battled with a father by my side. You chose to marry her. You chose not to let me know. I had to find out by visiting my grandparents, your parents, by surprise, simply because I didn’t want the entire family to be there when I showed up. There they were, photographs of a fabulous wedding, and my grandfather had the audacity to tell me it wasn’t much of a big deal.

I choose to ignore your birthday and your family’s birthdays. I feel sorry for my uncle because he is the only one who shouldn’t be mixed up in all of this. I’d wish I could get to know him better, but that would mean I would have to get to know you better too. I blame you for not being there, and I don’t want to have anything to do with you any longer. You should’ve been there, and you can’t try to fix it when I’m already in my twenties. I blame you for trying to blame my mother for not doing anything, and for things she did, while those were exactly the things I asked of her to (not) do. You didn’t want to see that, though. You didn’t want to see your son electing to ignore you while you’ve been ignoring him for years.

Remember that time at the hospital? That time when my grandfather happened to be hospitalised at the same time as my mum? I tried to visit him when I thought you had gone away. I hid myself from you in the hallways, evaded you. When I exited the elevator and saw you walking about, I stepped right back in, closing the doors immediately. When the coast was clear, I stepped in my grandfather’s hospital room. I was so focused on my grandfather lying there that I didn’t see you sitting there with my grandmother and my aunt. Suddenly it was all about you and me, while my grandfather, your father, was lying there recovering from heart surgery. You proceeded to give me a hug, and I didn’t feel a thing. I saw my grandmother with a content smile on her smug face, thinking everything had been fixed right there. My visit was short, and when I returned to my mother’s room I told my stepfather I hadn’t seen you.

Où t'es? Papa, où t'es?
Où t'es? Papa, où t'es?
Où t'es? Papa, où t'es?
Ou t'es, ou t'es où papa, où t'es?


When one of my closest friends shared this song with me a year ago, this was exactly how I felt.

Faut l'sucer d'son pouce ou quoi?
Dites nous où c'est caché,
Ça doit...
Faire au moins mille fois qu'on a
bouffé nos doigts
Hé!


“His fault is that he couldn't man up or what?
Tell me where you’re hiding!
I've waited countless hours.
Ah!”

And I’m done waiting. I still feel the pain every time I see a father with their child. I guess this gives a whole different take on “this could be us, but you playin’.” You could’ve been there when I first went to secondary school. You could’ve been there when I had a girlfriend for the first (and only) time. You could’ve been there when I graduated. You could’ve been there every time my mum was hospitalised, preventing my stepfather from verbally and emotionally abusing me. You could’ve been there when I went to university. We could’ve been celebrating Christmas together. We could’ve been there at each other’s birthdays.  We could’ve been listening music together; since my mum told me we have the same taste in music and I never knew. We could’ve been playing video games together. I could’ve been there helping you with the pharmacy. I could’ve been there when you got married again. It’s best to blame someone else while you weren’t trying hard enough, or trying at all, huh.

Up until this day, you’ve given me this pain, and it’ll never go away.
Never Go Away
This is personal.
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The golden clock was ticking quickly now
Around my face a hue of bittersweet
A frown, a simple glare, was all I meet
My full red lips would make a silent vow

On paper do we write and cry, erase
The little lies that moved to be believed
Their goals a cause that we should have perceived
Our lives are placed on hold, one time and place

Alas! We dream and doubt and drown in dread
We panic, portals proof of lack of peace
And quickly came our quiet clock to see
Our fancy flown away, and found us fled
Our sighs so soft they sent a swirl that ceased
To trick the time outstretched beneath the tree
Fast Forward
Another Petrarchan sonnet in iambic pentameter. I like to think I'm getting good at this, but I'll leave you to decide. Prompted by this: writeworld.tumblr.com/post/990…
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The eyes from Heaven cast upon me dwell
And I, before the altar, kneeling flame,
Am overshadowed, calling just their name
A thousand times this gaze was meant to quell

Another sight was yonder, savoured blight
A sudden breath my sound, not overcome
By cheers of joy so like excitement numb
A careful tread, a smile beyond delight

Though time has passed us by, echoes in vain
Back then, was my consent not mine to give?
That day belonged to me, as well as you
‘Tis harmful for a truth so simple and plain
To think it so forgotten and misgiven
Thus I leave, strange to hatred ‘twixt us two
Mutual
A Petrarchan sonnet in iambic pentameter. It's been a while since I wrote anything remotely interesting, but I thought this one was nice. Finally some inspiration. ;)
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Back I am again

Journal Entry: Sat Sep 29, 2012, 7:59 AM


Hi! Did you miss me?

Since I lost my notebook in which this summer's every poem & short story were written, I kind of lacked motivation to write again, but a writer or poet cannot deny his true calling. Therefore I (hopefully) amused you with today's submissions.

I have started my studies at the Radboud University Nijmegen, and I like it so far. I'm majoring in English Language & Culture if you were wondering. It seemed to best suit me and my interests.

I have started reading Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley's Frankenstein, and it's a novel I adore.

Now, if you have any questions, don't be afraid to ask. Oh, and if you happen to come across any great poetry/novels/art which you think I'd love, please send it to me. READ AND BE INSPIRED BY ALL THE ART!

Tata for now,

Niall

  • Mood: Artistic
  • Listening to: Aidû - Eluveitie
  • Reading: Frankenstein - Mary Shelley
  • Playing: Free MW3 Steam weekend!

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Hi, I'm Devin Niall and I'm 20 years old.
I live in Tilburg, the Netherlands. I've got this cute little dachshund as my pet =D Her name is Loeki. And uhm... Well, I write poems and stories, and I draw. I'm more of a writer though! If you want to know anything more about me, no need to be afraid, just ask me! ^^
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Ok ehm.. ik weet dat je mij niet kent.. maar ik vroeg me af hoe het met Regi gaat...
(oh god ik lijk wel een stalker)
want ik kan hem nergens meer vinden ;_;
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